Shirdi Sai Baba Prayers from Devotee Neha: Hello. This is Neha. One of the devotees since my 10th std. I am already married now. Feels helpless many a times. I am given to a very rich family and very handsome husband. Though everything is there I lack freedom. Ugly truth is that i feel too bad because I am not happy. Is this the life??? Always nodding head to in-laws orders? It’s a village where i am being given. I feel so drastic change from my early life. To be frank, never i wished for so rich family but i always wanted the family like ours. Although i belong to middle class i had much freedom; freedom in the sense my parents gave me everything that i wanted. I am a very sincere kind of girl, was too good at academics too.They had privileged me to work also. As being independent and working makes me feel happy. I strongly believe happiness is everything. I wanted to be independent but after marriage I feel like everything is so much suffocating. I want Baba's blessing for this. The thing which I didn’t want to happen soon happened. I conceived soon. Though i myself feel am so childish and can’t handle but I could not help in that case also. Its already 6th month running now, again some kind of pressure from husband, he want boy only. Is it in my hand??? I could guess from usg that its "female". Felt too bad, what can I do?? Will Baba help to get out of this?? I am too frustrated after marriage, I am so helpless many a times :( :( please Baba I seek for Your blessings.