The story begins 2 to 3 years ago before Diwali. This man wanted to connect with me on Facebook. I agreed. He was so handsome, funny, intelligent, caring, everything and more that my heart and soul wanted in a mate. I am from America. I am 54. Over time, responsibilities kept me from going to India to meet him. He found someone else in India and he married her. I do not blame him for this. But the event shattered me from inside out because he had become the first man ever in my life that I truly loved. I come from a background where love and relationship was not discussed. Neither was deep spirituality. I am one that needed that guidance. In relationships, I was so confused, angry. I knew God, but not who I was. Not until Shri Shirdi Sai Baba and this man came into my life. Now the man is gone. I am going to travel to India hoping to walk the landscapes, the gardens, maybe write if Baba wants me to. I am hurting heart and soul. I pray for a good man who loves me as much as I love him. I will not barter with Baba but there are so many unanswered questions. I listen to bhajans and do aarti. Events in my life have not been good. Men have raped this body, and there are cultures who would blame me and lose their respect for me because of this. I have always dressed modestly and still this happened. I carry a lot of guilt and regrets to Baba. I carry so much to Baba. I am a simple Hindu woman who is longing for balance of God and daily life. It is Shri Sai, Hare Om Shri Sai Who carries me now until Baba, Shri Krishna, God wants a new relationship and possible marriage to come to this journey. I lift an aarti light for that event to be soon and all mistakes forgiven. Jai Jai Shri Ram... Jai Jai Shri Hanuman ji, Shri Shirdi Sai Baba.
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