Dear Sai Maa and Sai Family. I want to ask You all that why is this important for a girl to stick with the relationship or marriage where she gets no love, no attention to her feelings, no respect, no trust? I have already mentioned several times in my previous posts that my husband and I are living like hell. Today I want to say that it is not his mistake nor my mistake rather its destiny. He managed to marry me somehow but never paid attention, never stood for me, never gave me trust, nothing except tears, but one thing that I have learnt from all this is that it was all my mistake because I had small small expectations from him every now and then. I felt that he would be an ideal husband. So it was my mistake. His nature is different in everything than what I thought of him or would say that what he pretended to be.
Now that I do not have parents nor family support, I am seeking help from Baba to give me courage to end this here. It will only take one single step of courage and I will be out of it. What is stopping me? This fear that how will I live, how will my granny bear all this or how will I stand again on feet. Because I am not like before after losing my baby, my body is not the same. Help me Saiyaan help me. Raah Dikha Prabhu, Himmat De, Chalna Sikha, Tu Hi Sambhal (show me the way Lord, Give me strength, teach me to walk and You only take care). Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai Sai.